Cancer is HARD. (25)

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I don’t feel particularly well at the moment. Yesterday, I woke up to a leaky ostomy bag, a splitting headache, I couldn’t feel my fingers, and somehow my calves now hurt when I walk. Delightful. But, guess what? I still had an awesome day. Take that, cancer. And, today I’ll have another one. Every day is a great opportunity to have a great day, regardless of what the world throws at you. Choose to thrive.

I haven’t blogged in a while, sorry but I’m not sorry. I’ve been busy. I’m trying to better myself everyday. These days I seem to have every minute planned out from about nine o’clock in the morning until nine o’clock in the evening. By the time I get home, I just haven’t felt like blogging. Plus, let’s be honest, everything isn’t all flowers and smiles all the time. Believe it or not, I’ve had a couple less than wonderful moments lately. I needed to clear my head before getting back to writing. Consider it cleared.

In my humble opinion, I’m still crushing life! I have gotten so much accomplished in the last few weeks, both personally and professionally. I’m pretty proud of myself. I adamantly maintain my “catch me if you can” attitude towards cancer and even life in general. Can’t stop, won’t stop. Coincidentally, you don’t need to have cancer to challenge yourself to be more productive with your daily life. Just do it. Adversity doesn’t breed character, it reveals it. Rise to the occasion.

Unfortunately, I haven’t been as much of a stickler to my diet lately. I haven’t really been bad, just less than perfect. Shocker, nobody is perfect. Quantity of life is extremely important, but so is quality. That being said, I was missing sandwiches in my life and so I “indulged.” I’m not sure what that says about my life these days that sandwiches seem to be the ultimate indulgence. Oh well. Now, I’m back to the low carb thing and I love it. I actually get a little bit of a buzz of energy from it.  Try it.

Anyway, this seems to be a little bit scatterbrained. That’s kind of how I have felt, lately. I feel as sharp as ever, but my short term memory seems to be a little bit frazzled. Bear with me.

Guess what? I got my surgery scheduled. March 28th. Feel free to come visit me in the hospital and keep me company. I’ll be there for at least a week. I’ll go ahead and say it…I’m pretty entertaining, especially on high-powered narcotics! Also, I go get my chemo pump unhooked this afternoon and this will be my last round of chemo until after surgery. I will have about a two month break from chemo it looks like. Let’s not talk about that surgery though, can’t say I’m looking forward to the recovery. But, it’s about time to get this evil out of me.

In case you were wondering, my lab results were pretty much spectacular again this week. My hemoglobin actually went up (*slow clap*). Conversely, my platelets went down, but not really by enough to make a real difference. Doc still seems really happy and impressed with my progress. I have a CT scan tomorrow (Feb. 26). Send some of those positive vibes for a good result, pretty pleaaaaaase. I’m really curious to see how the tumor has changed. I haven’t had any imaging done since before Thanksgiving.

I promise to get back to blogging regularly. Hold me to it.

Gladiator out.

4 thoughts on “Cancer is HARD. (25)

  1. Zach I know this can’t be an easy journey and I so admire your positive attitude. I’ve had several family members who had cancer so chemo brain is no surprise. It took time but they recovered physically and mentally.
    Looking forward to your next post. You’re in my prayers.

  2. Sounds like you are doing Awsome, the surgery is a breeze you sleep right through it 😉. It only hurts when you wake up and move, but the more you get up and move the sooner the soreness is gone. You will also love ice chips ( they taste like chocolate ) or what ever you like :). Will keep you in my prayers my last chemo was July 15 2013, so hang in there🙏🙏🙏🙏

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